Reality of Unconditional Love

I look into his eyes, searching for all the flaws that once resided. Trying to find reasons to keep my wall up and maintain this guarded love, I find nothing... Nothing! They were nowhere to be found. These deceiving eyes now held truth... and with passion, looking back at me saying, "I love you." The three words that felt so good but hurt me the most in the past... but something was different about the way he said it. It felt it pure, free of the emtional struggle that lives within our past.

Confused from the emotional journey of ups and downs in our entire relationship, I struggled to find clarity in this fresh, new intimate relationship. Realizing that there were still some issues and insecurities from our past, I tried to focus on the flaws and guard my heart as much as possible. However, being emotionally unavailable broke me down mentally and physically... but He was there. He was there for every moment of my emotional and mental break down, even when I didn't want to get out of the bed... He was there. I cried, yelled, laughed, and smiled... Emotionally and mentally confused, I was angry, sad, mad with tears streaming down my face but happy because He was There! He didn't walk out and he didn't shut down... He Stayed! He comforted me, He held me, He answered my questions to best of his ability, and He listened to me. He was completely open physically, mentally, and emtionally... and was handle everything. He handled this business like a man... like a man.

He was no longer the rising college freshman flirting with me... NOW, He was a young man going to adulthood as a rising senior in college. Learning from his mistakes, Growing from his past, and Handling his business on his own. He was Changing, He has Changed. Looking at him now is like looking a different person... he has matured, gained confidence, grown from his inseccurities in addition to his same great personality, humor, sacrism, and intelligence. I knew that the past was now just that, the past and our previous relationship was just another memory of the past. Our relationship is completely different, although some memories may surface in the future... They are no longer the reality of our future.

Wrapped in his arms and looking into his eyes, I fell in love again. This man standing in front was speaking truth to my heart and exposing the very core of himself to heal my broken heart. I was released... and my love began to flow. My unconditional love for him surfaced, and I had to surrender... I allowed myself to love again. I was happy to be open, free, and able to express myself... I'm In Love.

The Reality of Unconditional Love is the joy that comes out of pain, the laughter that comes out of crying, and the beautiful smile that comes out of frowning...

and the Truth that I can't see my life without Him.